Sometimes I just think about how my dad lost his father when he was around 13. How he, my aunts, and my grandma have lived most of their without my grandpa. They were all so young when suddenly the dynamics of the entire family shifted. They’re all so full of unconditional love and go out of their way for their family. They’re kind, funny, fair and don’t fall too deeply into the formalities of being desi (which are usually nonsense). My Allah grant them all the highest level of Heaven. Hopefully I can be as genuine and loving as the adults in my family. Blessed. BLESSED BLESSED.
Dad’s out of the country, that means I’m picking up his shifts. That means I go through a full tank of gas in one week. I’m up waking everyone and out the door at 6 and staying up till whatever hour of the night my mom comes home so she has a friendly face to greet her/ midnight. It’s not so much the sleep, but how my day is so FULL. Not full of my own stuff, but everyone else’s stuff and then mine is squeezed where it can find itself room. There’s so much happening right now every which way, I have to many roles to fill, so many damn demanding roles!!! Times like this I totally am overwhelmed by being the eldest. It’s a lot of work filling my dad’s shoes, and keeping together my granddaughter/daughter/sister/student/friend/human (!!!) roles. 7 days, 7 days till some relief.
Barely keeping it together, don’t know how my overworked parents do it. Heaven will be their home, insha’Allah. Blessed.
The Cast of Teen Wolf when they were their characters’ ages…
(or as close as possible for those that have been given ages on the show)
this is really important to relieve the pressure to look like “teens” on tv!! yo i love teen wolf but they are not hot teens, they’re just hot 20 somethings.
*thinks about life for 2.7 seconds*
me: im sad
sloppy collection of encouraging words/mantras for life from this point
- be stubborn about your goals, be flexible about how you achieve them
- work until your idols become your rivals
- be so good they can’t ignore you
- stir the smooth sands of monotony
- live the life you’d be envious of if you saw someone else living it
- when they say you can’t, you have to
- when you’re backed up against the wall, break the goddamn wall
- no half measures
- you don’t need to explain your dreams, they belong to you
- never look back, never give up